My Novel

Assuming I would ever be able to finish a novel I started to write, my Young Adult novel would be about a young girl and her struggle to find herself and understand relationships with men. It would be like Alexie's in that I feel that my story could be understood better in diary form. I think after reading Alexie's novel, I would like to add illustrations or even pictures from the mile marks of my story and my life.
I have grown up from the many wrong relationships I was in before and I hope I found what I believe to be the right one now. I know that my story of entering into a serious relationship in 6th grade and having it last until the beginning of my 9th grade. I then took advantage of a large public school coming from nine years at a private school, and went guy crazy. I overlapped relationships, experienced the pressures of fitting in, and was faced with rape in my school building. My parents, though I hated them then for doing it, played an instrumental role in removing me from that school, uplifting our family and moving to a new town with a smaller public school with less controversy. At that school I somehow found the one guy who brought me more trouble. I was stuck in a five and a half year relationship that surrounded my life with mental, physical, and emotional abuse. I was too immature and too rebellious to listen to those around me and see that that relationship would ruin my life. I struggled with having a long distance relationship that had no trust, relied on sex to recover from the distance, then a pregnancy that ended in a miscarriage but made me see his true colors. My story would cover the rollercoaster of aftermath that I was left to sort through after he called off our engagement while he was in Rome, online. I feel that my story of choices, of abandonment, suffering, physical battles I inflicted upon myself, but of speaking out and getting help after I moved to a new school.
No adolescent should have to endure what I had to, alone, nor should any teen feel that they can get away with bad choices because they are immature and adolescents. The decisions I made in my last relationship have come to haunt the rest of my life, and the new relationship I am in now. Because I chose to ignore those around me, I made a decision that could determine the rest of my life; if I can live a healthy life, if I can have kids, and if I can ever trust a man in that way again.